abang yo dah selamat mendirikan rumah tangga. pasni giliran abg yan lak. tapi dia tu entah bila lah. kerja hari2 duit takmo simpan. boros je. tapi gatal nak kawen. awek keliling pinggang. tapi i know, he’s serious wif Gee who is now in Dubai. entah bila la Gee nak balik. me pon kinda miss her.

hmm… actually i came to talk about this after chatting wif ct tadi. actually we talk about psp, owh, mahal la if nak beli kat amir. if im working, ok gak. then, come about saving, n wedding and engagement.

haihh… berat ni. my kak long who is very good at giving me ‘tekanan’ keep on pushing me to push amir, so we will be officially engaged. she said at least we have ‘ikatan’. she doesnt want to see me one day termenung when at age 30 im still not married. huhu… macam2 la kak long said and with her pressured tone, really made my heart sank.

i dont know wut to say!! hey, ive got a lot to say. just dat better keep quiet, coz kaklong’s style is like that. just shut up, listen or blah. huhu..

i think, it doesnt really matter if bertunang or not, coz if we r not meant to be, bertunang pon xde maknenyer. then, bole merosakkan hubungan 2 keluarga. ugly, kan? then, if aku jadi spinster pon, wut to. if takdir aku macam tu. just live life la!! =) optimize my life and accept takdir yang Allah dah tentukan for me.

tapi, natural la i think.. when my friend one by one dah bertunang, kawen and dah dapat baby pon! of course la i want these too! as soon as possible. but if its not in the near future pon.. wut to do? sabar je la… ;p

ive read this one blog of someone i know who doesnt believe in friendship, give and take.

she believes in taking advantage of the other, and let it be if people wanna take advantage of her so long as the other person wont bother her.

she believes friend is a nuisance. kena jaga hati dia la. do this and that to make a friend happy, and sacrifice for friend. for her semua ni menyusahkan.

owh. im not condemning her. and here am not judging her. let her be with what she thinks.

just wanna say my stand.

i never think the way she thinks, but it doesnt make me a better person than her pon.

for me, i lost nothing in giving and loving others. there’s nothing difficult to do something for people u love, ie; ur friends. yeah, maybe your friend wont do as much as u do for her, but that’s not important. helping people and making people happy.. u dapat pahala, kan?

bukan ke ade satu ayat Quran tu.. “tak beriman seseorang tu if dia tak sayang saudara-saudaranya” .

correct me if im wrong. im really not good at this kind of thing. tapi, i interpret it as Allah pon mahu kita saling sayang-menyayangi. lebih2 lagi, Allah sendiri Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang.

Tidak kah these facts cukup untuk encourage kita jadi lebih penyayang? Allah yang Maha Berkuasa sangat sayang umatNya. Tapi, kenapa kita yang lemah dan hina ni taknak sayang sesama sendiri?

if kita selfish and also tak kisah orang lain selfish and buat suka hati kita, siapa yang rugi? kita jugak yang rugi,kan?