male chauvinistic p**

ive never think of myself as a feminist. and im not a weak woman either. i think, i just like the way God has created us. Guys are leader, and when they are good, they are good leader.
its not that woman can’t be a leader. just that women do have some barriers from being a perfect leader.
maybe its because;
1. woman are physiologically and pschologically more affected by the hormones
2. its always woman who do two jobs. (i think this contribute to 75% of the reason) yeah.. look at ur mom who is working.she went out to work at the same time your father did. but she woke up earlier. she prepared breakfast for the family. or at least get something so her family has breakfast. then, in the evening, she came back at the same time as your father. but she has to cook dinner. your dad pulak, probably golek2 atas sofa reading the newspaper or smoke his cigarettes. then, if the baby cry, who will go after the baby first? ur mum jugak kan? sometimes, she even cook while holding the baby, or breast feed the baby.
pastu, after makan did ur dad leave his plate on the dining table? or the best i assumed is bringing it to the sink. did he ever actually collect all the dishes and wash it in the kitchen? never right?

okay, okay. guys, plez…. dont get mad
i am not trying to sakitkan hati anybody here or blame the fathers.
i love my dad :)
maybe its juz the nature of the guy
but we should try change this rite?
last time, women didnt go out to work. but now woman did.
so, why cant guys do woman’s job too?

its juz that, i was so pissed of wif a guy’s words in the radio i listened juz now.
he was like a guy from zaman firaun. so into his manly self. huh.
what a jerk.
he said that woman cant be anything. impossible woman can be great. he even said this sentence
“look who is the top most chef in the world, not ur mum, not my mum. its a MAN!”
“ive been watching football, following all kind of sport for 15 years. how could a girl beat me in my knowledge?”

huh. pathetic little man. im sure he is not a real man.
maybe he has ED? hahahaha

Add comment June 5, 2009 nanain08

ME~~

everytime im writing my blog, im sure i should actually be doing something else at the moment. for now, i think i should be lying on my bed, golek2 while waiting for azan maghrib, solat then go for my on call.
but i am stuck here. my fingers gatal nak menaip. ;)

i was thinking about friends

that day, one of my bestfriends asked me in YM
“so, am i still an important person for u?”
or, something sound like that la. cant really remember exactly what was it.
i was like, kinda pissed out.
haha
then, i actually kinda scolded her.
“how dare u think like that?!!”

knowing her, i know she was emo.

em. i dont want to answer that. she herself knows it.

by the way, i was thinking of sending a mail, or an e-card to her.
but, tak gerak2 pon lagi

anyway, my dear friend
‘i seriously cant wait to see you and catch up things about u. its like ages since last time i saw u, n i know i’ve been missing a lot.
im waiting and planning so that we can pillow talk like how we used to do and nangis2 again n again’
:)
n i wish we cud go back to ur room kat hostel ukm.
seriously, i miss that room too~~

hmmm
i hope, u wud be patient wif me. juz know that u r always my bestfriend, forever.
know that aku tak pernah sisihkan ko or sengaja2 taknak jumpa ko.
huhuhu

Add comment June 3, 2009 nanain08

satu dua tiga empat

i should be writing my orthopedic portfolio
however, just wanna share wif u this song
super romantic :)

Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
I LOVE YOU

I love You~~
All the best for the coming final!
Mesti teruskan usaha and banyakkan doa. I am always here for you and always pray for ur success, Mr. Izmail…

Ps; anyway, cant wait for u to finish the exam. dah berbulan-bulan tak lepak same2, kan? ;)

1 comment May 28, 2009 nanain08

home~~

home sweet home

saya dah balik rumah!! yahooooo~~~
im so glad to be home. the love battery has been recharged.

a lil bit description of my home

my house was built dengan penuh kasih sayang by my late father, my mum and my brothers. everywhere, every part of my house has my dad’s fingerprints, has his sweats. its the one place where my dad wished to settle down with my beloved mum. the project architect, was my own abang yo and abg yan who was at that time still in uni and polytechnic. and there was also sentuhan my mum. =)
but, my dad tak sempat pon spent his old life in this house. coz God loves him more and taken him away from us. hmm.. i think its just physically.. coz my ayah is still here with me. can still feel the warm of his hug, can still hear his voice. he is here to stay in my heart to always teman me. forever…

Ernest once asked me where is the most romantic place in Raub?
i think i’ve told him.. its my own house! the home of love~~ =)

my sisters all are well aware, i will never have my wedding anywhere else other than my ayah’s house ;D

Add comment May 24, 2009 nanain08

breaking down

i feel so down so low today after nearly 3 months of staying in BP. i feel like driving far far away from here. i wanted to go home. i cant find any solution for this. all i have in my mind is going home. but how could i solve a problem, @ ‘problems’ by running away?
the work stress, the failure to fit in, pressure from un-understanding undisciplined lecturer, the beauty back stabber…
i just cant hold on but breaking up.

Ya Allah, please… give me the strength to go on. make me strong. Please take away these tears… Amin

Add comment May 19, 2009 nanain08

family~~ let the pictures tell the story :)

mak's first cameron visit

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Add comment May 18, 2009 nanain08

Pengajaran hidup

hari ini, cuti saya sudah habis walaupun hari ini hari sabtu. saya sudah kembali ke rumah tak berapa cantik di batu pahat kerana esok saya perlu ke dewan bersalin untuk menjalani kelas ‘detention’. saya sangat sedih. tatkala rakan-rakan saya bersama keluarga, saya bersendirian di bilik ini.
sebenarnya saya sudah sedih sejak sebelum cuti. sejak hari yang malang itu. sejak pesakit di wad saya ‘collapse’ sebab dia ada jangkitan paru-paru. specialist saya berasa sangat marah kerana saya dan beberapa orang rakan tidak ‘aware’ akan hal ini. paling teruk tiada doktor langsung di dalam wad di kala pesakit itu mengalami penurunan tekanan darah yang sangat rendah.
saya tidak terkata apa apabila mendapat tahu saya harus menjalani kelas ini. bukan itu sahaja, malahan saya berasa seakan-akan hati saya hancur apabila mendengar pensyarah saya berkata
“SAJIDAH, I AM VERY UPSET WITH YOU”
air mata saya dengan mudahnya menakungi kolam mata saya.
saya rasa saya telah berusaha bersungguh-sungguh, tetapi tiba-tiba di saat akhir posting itu, perkataan-perkataan itu yang saya harus dengar. hati saya sangat kecewa. inilah salah satu peristiwa yang buat saya rasa ingin jatuh dan jatuh dan jatuh lagi.
nasib malang saya tidak berakhir di situ.
saya mendapat tahu dari beberapa orang teman bahawa seorang rakan detention class saya telah menyalahkan saya atas peristiwa malang itu. katanya pesakit itu adalah pesakit saya. kerana katil itu harus dicover oleh saya.
apa yang menyakitkan hati saya ialah dia telah bermuka-muka dengan saya. saya telah tanyakan padanya, siapakah yang sepatutnya menjaga pesakit itu? bukan kerana saya ingin mencari salah siapa-siapa. saya ingin tahu, apakah yang sebenarnya pesakit itu hadapi hingga menyebabkan dia collapse. tetapi, katanya pada saya, kami tak perlu tahu dan tiada siapa harus disalahkan. (argh. bagaimanakah dia harus tahu, sedangkan dia sendiri hanya hadir tatkala dia tahu pakar itu bakal muncul di wad)
wah manisnya mulut dia di saat itu. katanya, dia terima kelas detention itu, walhal pada masa yang sama, dia menghantar khidmat pesanan ringkas kepada beberapa orang mengatakan saya yang menyebabkan semua ini berlaku.
saya tidak mampu berbuat apa-apa selain menulis di blog saya. biarlah teman-teman saya yang memahami sahaja tahu perbuatan jahat seorang rakan yang menikam saya dari belakang.

seperti yang saya katakan sebelum ini, hati saya berkecai-kecai. cuti saya punah kerana peristiwa ini. saya tidak pernah berhenti memikirkan hal ini.
namun begitu, sepatutnya saya tidak menyerah kalah kepada situasi.
iya, teman-temanku. inilah yang bakal kita hadapi di saat kita mula bekrja nanti. orang akan bersaing dengan kita dan sanggup tikam kita dari belakang untuk mencapai matlamat mereka. mereka talam dua muka (walaupun talam yang saya jumpa kali ada dua muka, tapi mekapnya sangat lah tebal.tak perlu dua muka.)

saya sedang berusaha untuk hapuskan api kemarahan ini dan tenangkan jiwa saya. kalau ikutkan hati, ingin saya tambah merah di pipinya dengan satu tamparan power. tapi biarlah itu berlaku di dalam mimpi sahaja.

saya berdoa untuk jadi lebih tabah dan semoga Allah bantu saya untuk terus membaiki diri saya ke arah yang lebih baik. InsyaAllah…

3 comments May 16, 2009 nanain08

(^_^)

a step closes

yepp. untuk menjawab soalan peminat2 semua, saya telah di risik @ di cop oleh Mr. Izmail’s Mama.

=)

Add comment May 6, 2009 nanain08

OBGYN

i was looking for law regarding abortion in malaysia coz its one of the issues of our case discussion. then, found this article. i think this is a good article from the star. good for layman and those teenagers who currently has out of wedlock pregnancy and thinking of abortion.

selamat membaca!! :)

The process of elimination
By LI EE KEE

ABORTION is defined as the expulsion of the conceptus – the product of conception at any point between fertilisation and birth – before the 24th week or the loss of a foetus weighing 500gm or less.

While abortion is traditionally seen as being induced, it can also be spontaneous. When a mother suffers a miscarriage, her situation is medically termed as an abortion but when dealing with patients, obstetricians and gynaecologists refer to it as a miscarriage.

Dr Nor Ashikin: Discuss with parents first.
Malaysia’s Abortion Act 1967 makes abortion or termination of pregnancy illegal. However, there are circumstances in which it is permissible. According to Pantai Medical Centre consultant obstetrician and gynaecologist (OBGYN) Dr Nor Ashikin Mokhtar, a pregnancy may be terminated if two registered medical practitioners are of the opinion, formed in good faith, that continuation of pregnancy will endanger the mother’s life.

“For instance, if she has breast cancer, cancer of the womb or renal failure. The mother’s safety and well-being is always priority because we have to take into consideration her family and existing children whom she has to care for. If the pregnancy were to continue, it would deprive them of a mother,” she says.

Termination of pregnancy is also advised to prevent grave permanent injury to the physical and mental health of the mother.

“Victims of rape or incest who become impregnated as a result are permitted to abort their child as long as there is a mental assessment from a psychiatrist that shows if the girl were to continue with her pregnancy, it would affect her psychologically, maybe causing her to lose her mind.

“Also, if the foetus is diagnosed with gross physical or mental abnormalities, like severe anencephaly where the baby is without a brain or skull, or part of it is missing, an abortion is advised. Because when the baby is born, it may only live for a few hours,” she adds.

Various techniques are employed in an abortion procedure, all of which depends on the stage of gestation. They can be grouped as either medical or surgical termination.

Medical termination is for pregnancies less than nine weeks old. This can be done with a Mifepristone tablet (a hormone tablet that blocks production of progesterone produced by the mother’s body to maintain early pregnancy). It causes bleeding, pain and expulsion of the conceptus within 24 to 48 hours. The tablet is not available in Malaysia.

“With oral medication, the abortion can be incomplete and has to be supplemented with a surgical technique like curettage. Again depending on the period of gestation, if it was between five to six weeks, it may come out with the menses. Between eight to nine weeks, the abortion may be incomplete and a surgical termination like D&C (dilatation and curettage) is needed.”

Under surgical termination, pregnancies less than 12 weeks old can be aborted via a suction curettage or D&C.

Beyond 12 weeks, the procedure for termination of pregnancy is more complex, where it’s almost like an induction of labour. All surgical termination procedures are done under general anaesthesia because the patient is relaxed, making the cervix easier to dilate.

Only doctors who have undergone obstetrics and gynaecology training/posting and have been taught or have performed these procedures, as part of their training supervised by the consultant OBGYN is capable of performing an abortion surgery safely.

Although abortion appears to be a minor operation – if done correctly, it takes only 10 to 15 minutes – Dr Nor Ashikin says that complications can and do occur anytime, anywhere.

“A life is at stake, particularly if you are talking about teenagers. It might affect them and their future pregnancies. The worse case scenario is death because if it is a forceful rather than gradual dilatation of the cervix, the girl can go into shock. Bear in mind that the cervix for those who have not delivered before is the size of a pinhole and you are trying to dilate it to about six to seven millimetres in diameter. If it is forceful dilatation or performed by someone untrained, it can tear the cervix where the immediate effect of which is haemorrhage. Uncontrolled and if the clinic is not properly equipped with blood supply for instance, the girl can die.”

Dr Nor Ashikin adds that in the long term, the muscles of the cervix will become weak or damaged.

“She must be prepared for the reality that she might not be able to conceive when she wants to because when there is tear or perforation resulting in continuous bleeding or severe infection, sometimes the uterus has to be removed. Should she get pregnant, she’ll find that she is likely to have recurrent spontaneous miscarriages or go into pre-term labour.”

An incomplete abortion without supplementation can lead to prolong bleeding, causing infection and damage to the ovaries, fallopian tubes, uterus and eventually resulting in infertility.

Uterine perforation can also take place because the uterus is usually anteverted (tilted forward) and instruments like the curette are stiff. As it is inserted, it might perforate the cervix or the wall of the uterus, which can result in a haemorrhage; perforate the bladder, which can cause urine leakage; or puncture any of the intestines, as they are located behind the uterus.

Between a D&C and suction curettage, the latter is safer because it uses a plastic tube, which is softer and thus able to follow the curve of the uterus. The degree of complication also depends on period of gestation with complications less likely to occur if the pregnancy is still in its early stages. And an abortion conducted legally in a hospital will have a smaller percentage of complications.

“These are the risks girls have to know they are taking and whether it’s worth taking them. Many think it’s an easy way out, as contraception. But I don’t think they actually realise what they are in for. They are desperate people who try to solve the problem with desperate measures,” says Dr Nor Ashikin.

“Youth must be more responsible, in the sense if they feel they are sexually active, they should understand the consequences and be prepared to take the risk, although I don’t think that is the right attitude. Abortion is not the answer and this is where sex education is important for teenagers.

“It’s hard making these comments but as a parent, I feel that moral and religious guidance are very important to guide our teenagers because of exposure to the media and Westernisation.

“Any girl who finds herself pregnant, should first go to her parents and discuss it with them. I know as teens, they’re at that rebellious stage where they think their parents are their worst enemy. But your parents are your best friends who always have your best interest at heart. If not, talk to counsellors who can understand and help you,” she advises.

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em, i wanna add up. for muslim, abortion is a sin. apatah lagi the act that lead to pregnancy itself is a super sinful act.
u maybe terlanjur, but once u get pregnant, do u want to commit another super sinful act by aborting the baby yang tak berdosa?
hmm… fikirkanlah.
:)

Add comment April 29, 2009 nanain08

my first surgery

i had just assisted a surgery about an hour ago. i wont put it as assisted. i think i was juz like a penyebok there. seriously.
it was total abdominal hysterectomy with salpingoopherectomy. (removal of uterus, the tube, and the ovaries)
my patient had ovarian tumour at the right ovary. and i saw the tumour. thank God it was benign looking (based on what the surgeon said la)
yaa… it doesnt look as horrid as what a cancer will look like. how should i describe it ek, it was as big as telur burung unta. and was white colour and ada selaput yang ada banyak blood vessels.
because my patient had two previous caesarian section, we found a lot of adhesion, which make the surgery a bit more difficult. and there were a lot of bleeding vessels at the bladder that my surgeon need to carefully stop the bleeding. stiching the vaginal vault pon doesnt look easy.
owh, im not gonna talk about technical thing here.
i wanna go back why i described myself as penyebok at the operating table. as this is my first day, i was blurr. nasib baik one of the MA show me the way to scrub. i actually already practiced bit n bit. but the hardest part for me was to put on glove. it has always be my problem.
the surgeon n medical officer were nice. maybe im too slow too blurr the surgeon become grumpy. i feel quite down la. coz i was not able to help much. menyusahkan ada la. haihh… why la we have to hav this kouta system. (actually its good. exposure b4 you become a houseman)
i will feel this feelings for a few days until i managed to get over this.
and keep on telling myself this;
“ye nana. its not because of you. memang surgery tadi susah sket.”

owh, plez someone comfort me. huhuh.

2 comments April 28, 2009 nanain08

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